Decisions made to destroy Wanting to love myself But familiar patterns are convincing Healthy feels good in the long run More than short term escapes That is an abstract concept When the sweets are seductive No longer as effective The... Continue Reading →
I see you in my peripheral Calling to me, seducing me But it won't work this time I'm tired of your mind control The broken games we play I'm done with you breaking me Today I break free I choose... Continue Reading →
The day before me separate from the darkness The rain came and washed away the hurt Memories still remain Lessons learned the hard way New habits forming Leaving old painful ones behind No longer on repeat My anxiety twitches Wanting... Continue Reading →
It hurts to feel It hurts to watch my dreams From the outside My brain fragmented into shattered pieces Memory and focus allude me Trying hard to concentrate To put the words together Heartbroken, seeking purpose Why am I doing... Continue Reading →
I can't stop.. I unwrap another and another A literal binge I know I'm hurting myself I know I'll suffer later But I unwrap another No amount can make me feel full This is a spiritual hunger A longing for... Continue Reading →
My brain stops, it's frozen I allowed my focus to stray from ACTION To overthinking and thinking and thoughts and this issue and what about that and can we fix this or prevent that and oh my gosh what if... Continue Reading →
Pandemic, Preppers, Preparing for Possibilities Balancing reality, possibility and fear Called crazy before 2020 Now they're the ones writing books and sharing tips For any of those who will listen It's not a matter of IF anymore It's more a... Continue Reading →
Hurt & Betrayal, awkward conversations Have you betrayed me Or have I ultimately betrayed myself Not sure which way to go Or who to trust anymore The darkness surrounding me Is enveloping me closer Threatening to suffocate me And plunge... Continue Reading →
The darkness wraps me in a seductive blanket of comfort But I don't belong here So easily I can get lost and forget what I'm fighting for Forget why I'm here and what I need to do The light calls... Continue Reading →
