The best thing that happened this month was that it ended
Seriously, it was intense enough that it choked my words
Unable to focus or form foundations
One after another, the bricks piled on so heavy
Some thrown in my direction
And stupid me, I didn’t duck
I picked up the bricks of drama, hurt, and pain
I cuddled them close, protected them at all costs
My fingers bled, and I wondered if I’d be better off..
But the month ended, I held on
One foot in front of the other
Often stumbling backwards
Regaining footing, sometimes with the support of others
Reminding me of the light and love that exists
May may have broken me
June may be continuing to try
But I have a bigger why
And I don’t stay down for long
I dance with koda and sing a little song
I find my groove back even if my focus is still in a million places
Life is changing, my writing is changing, my abilities are changing
Learning who this new me is
Constructing her how I want her to be
Finding my beliefs, my very own beliefs, convictions, values
My never will I do that again just because I did that before
Valuing me even if I’m the only one who does
Finding my voice back and charging ahead
It’s time to expect more of myself again
I’m not willing to roll over and just (play) dead
I dont care about those nasty things you said…
Anymore
They cut deep to my soul
But you aren’t worth giving away my power to
I’m learning and creating who I am
So I can stand firm in who I want to be
Proud of all I’ve survived, will survive, and build so I don’t have to just survive
Building abundance so I can lift others up out of those places too
Because no one deserves to be alone hopeless in the dark
When there are enough small sparks of light for anyone who may want one
This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine
Let it shine, let it shine, let it shine

Written from a prompt in a creative writing group I facilitate. You can check it out and request to join us here: https://m.facebook.com/groups/213087289131266/?ref=share&mibextid=NSMWBT