Writing ravages my soul
Pen to paper perfectly
Healing my heart and mind
Popping prescription pills
Telling myself I’ve taken a turn for the crazy
Fantasizing over filling my body
Emptying container after container
Sealing my fate one dose at a time
Controlled courage crumbles and caves
Gives up trying to be strong
Trying to fix the fuck ups
Running away from the rubble
Enough of everything
Why does this happen time and again
Sick of being sick
In the mind and body
Where’s the magic want
Why does it always end up like this