When I stood at the bottom of the staircase
I felt nervous, where did it lead? What was I getting myself into?
I could not see the top, but I felt drawn to ascend it anyway
When I stepped on the first stair, my legs felt shaky, so unsure
I kept stepping though, and went up two more
My legs were tingling, and almost gave way
I wasn’t sure if I could do this journey
But the strong voice inside told me I must
I summoned that courage and took a few more steps
A door next to the stairs flung open, nearly knocking me all the way back down
But I regained my footing as the railing to help me was only there on some of the parts of this journey
And at this point here there was none
What was behind the door that swung open, I questioned
But realized there was only the darkness of my own thoughts
I kept going up, up the staircase
Despite me wanting to stop and quit
There was a bigger pull keeping me going
This was a mission and I was unsure where I was going
Or why it was so important I keep going
But I knew I needed to keep going
My legs were getting tired, my spirit weak
And that’s when another railing appeared, helping me along the journey
Just when I felt like giving up
A railing would appear, giving me courage to keep trying
I neared what I thought was the top
But quickly realized there were more stairs
They just turned around a corner, out of my original sight
So onward I continued
Feeling like this journey needed to end at some point
Finding a window with the sun beaming through
I paused to enjoy the view
Before continuing up further, up this steep staircase before me
Not the journey I would have maybe chosen
But the one that chose me
That I truly feel I’m meant for

Written November 29, 2016