Decisions made to destroy
Wanting to love myself
But familiar patterns are convincing

Healthy feels good in the long run
More than short term escapes
That is an abstract concept
When the sweets are seductive

No longer as effective
The escape feels broken
The price too high
When the high is reduced

Switching my mind to the long game
Takes effort and dedication
Choosing me, choosing life
Deciding not to destroy me anymore

Learning to love myself is unfamiliar
But the only way to freedom is through
A live lived out of control
Is no life lived at all

Taking back my power
Taking back my health
I say no
And embrace new ways, new coping, new living
Now.